after the helicopter ride...it was fantastic,superb, wonderful...just beyond description..well we were so intoxicated we didnt get over the wondrous feeling 

the giant sea horse..wow! i wouldnt know it looks exactly like a sea horse if i didnt see it from up here...my gosh..what a miracle.. 

roger,line clear...hehe...i'm the co-pilot for the day mam..i hope u enjoy ur ride..i ASSURE you this is 100% guaranteed ur safe wif me. 

the 12 apostles...i was sooooo amazed and thrilled seeing these beautiful apostles...SubhanAllah 

i really love this pic...its somewhere in great ocean rd..the rainbow makes it the more beautiful... 

this is some of the creative arts i left..and then look what happen..some bloody koalas or whatever got the gut to ruin it... 

i look bloody relaxed dont i...hehe..i was imagining myself flying up to the mountain... 

Thredboin Canberra...up in the snowy mountain which is not snowing at this time of year...too bad isnt it.i'd love skiing not considerng the possibility of breaking my neck or any other part of my body hehe...maybe someday i will ski here... 

in jenolan cave somewhere near blue mountain..we just finished the tour cave..it was totally cool..really really cool..see how excited i was..hehe besides what an experiece, never thought i would see something so beautiful inside the cave.. 

sydney opera house and the bridge at nite.i was on the cruise to get this pic..beautiful isnt it.. 

wow isnt that the great sydney opera house?that great huh?hurm maybe not on my second thought 

yeah rite thats me..that was in errr sort of the famous casino in sydney but of coz we didnt go in..i was on the hop on hop off bus 

statue of liberty wif no torch in sydney???ru kidding me..

come on lets go in...

Habit busting or habit boosting

Habit busting or habit boosting

So much for the new book I’ve just finished reading, habit busting or habit boosting I have no idea at all. These past few days I was not functioning very well. Been neglecting my works for quite sometime, tutes, lecture thing etc. I simply hate feeling this sort of uselessness and hopelessness. However, the thing is I’ve been reading a book on getting rid of bad habits, and otherwise happen. I’ve actually been boosting my bad habits. Guess I need the what-so-called reversed psychology. My brain certainly is showing resistance to pressure and urges to change the way my body wants to function or act. Don’t know if it’s a good idea after all to try pushing my own limit to change. But no I won’t give in to this. I’m quite positive it’s not the book. I got other things on my mind lately. That’s it. So many things going on that for a time I’ve failed to refocus on what I’m doing and what I’m supposed to do.

Never mind whatever happened still happened. They can never be undone. I’ll just have to live the present and the future with better prospects, wont I? But the thing is, no matter what I have done and what I haven’t, I really feel good. It’s been so long since I feel my mind is so opened up and free. And I feel that I’m beginning to look at things on different perspective and grounds. Bad things, good things whatever. Right now I really feel like sharing what I’ve got from the book I’ve read, HABIT BUSTING, A 10 step plan that will change your life by Patrick McNally. Might sound too good to be true, isn’t it? But of course it takes lots of practices and courage to really apply it. I’ll just go about it ‘quite’ briefly though.

Step 1: to know what habit really is.

It’s pretty interesting to know that actually we (most of us) tend to delude ourselves that how bad and horrible persons we are, it is nothing that can be changed because it’s our nature. But the thing is, that’s not who we really are and these sort of behavior or habits are very much changeable as good as we can change our style of dressing. What I like most (something that really make me start feeling good about myself) is that, he reminded us the fact that we are not born with those traits, but we picked them all up and they have become our ‘second’ nature, not our first nature. And it goes with the quote by John Dryden:

We first make our habits, and then our habits make us.

I really felt good knowing this thing, though it’s bloody obvious, I’m pretty sure most of us might have never given such a thought of that, the fact that we’ve been picking up habits from people around us, be it our parents, or friends whatever.
And another intriguing thing is that, it all started from our minds, the way we think that formed whatever habits we got. The mind apparently is the key to break it all up, our ‘bad’ habits. Just leave good habits alone though, I wish I had those good ones. Albert Einstein said:

If you can’t change your mind, are you sure you still have one?

Basically what he’s conveying is that, change is very much possible. Gosh I always thought I’m always going to be stuck with whatever bad habits I have, like being hot tempered, procrastinating etc. this is the best thing that ever happened to me, knowing that somehow there’re ways of making my life so much less miserable and better in the future. I feel free of the thought that there are things that are just off limit to me like changing for the better. William James said:

The greatest discovery of my generation is that human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind.

There’re so many other quotes by famous successful people in history that I really love because they are so inspiring. But I wouldn’t want to put everything in here though. So basically when I read all those quotes, I’ve realized that these people must have hold onto this kind of faith, or belief, and that’s what made them successful in whatever they did, or do. Forsake the fact that they might not have applied it in their own lives whatever, there’s still no denying of the fact that it’s very true and sensible.

In a nutshell, breaking a bad habit is possible. Be it whatever you call it, your personality, or your behavior, you don’t actually have to be that way. Yes! I don’t have to be the way I am now. I want to be happy and changes for the better will do just that.

Step 2: using your imagination

He implied that all we have to do to change our life is to change our mind and it’s not going to be that simple. We have to stop feeling bad and start to feel good about ourselves. But feeling good is not a one time event, it is a decision we make minute by minute, day by day and hour by hour. ‘We’ have to create it.
He provided a lot of mind exercises which I tried to do, but of course you wouldn’t feel the difference just yet. I wouldn’t say I’ve managed o finally gotten rid of the bad habits I got, just that I was inspired to do it. Get rid of it. Manipulate my mind towards achieving just that. I have to get accustomed to it. Though I cant get rid of em just yet, I’ll just have to start imagining i have and how good it feels. i love this quote by John Updike:

Dreams come true: without that possibility nature would not incite us to have them.

So dream up! Of course dream only for good things to happen in your life. I myself wouldn’t wanna have nightmares and expect them to come true. Would you? I’m beginning to understand that we should not think of bad things to happen to us as if we’re expecting them to happen. Instead of worrying about the unknown bad things whatever, it’ll make us feel good to dream or expect good things to happen to us. That’ll make us feel really good that we begin to find ways to make it really happen. What mind says the body does, right? So I’ve finally resolved the confusion about this thing. And if I think I will never be able to stop procrastinating, then I will do nothing about it since my mind says so. And it’ll tell you that it’ll be very futile for you to change, coz that’s the way you are, man! Stop this bullshit. Say that to anyone, even yourself if you have even a little thought like that. And blow off those people who said that to you. Ops not a really good idea though. I really feel astonished by this discovery. So, from now on, I have to stop deluding myself that I can never have control over my life, on what I want, or what I need and what I do.

To be continued...

21st April 2005

not able to continue my review...

too bad for that.actually i borrowed that book from the library and i had to return it. hurm never mind as long as i understood what's it all about in overall...if i really want to change i don't necessarily have to do the exact 10steps rite..there're thousands of ways to do just to accomplish that.everything starts from within,the good the bad whatever.basically it has the same theory and application if not in exact way or method.