TuNGgU TeDuH dULu

alhamdulillah. just finished reading Faisal Tehrani's novel. inspirational and motivating.

well, not that i'm gonna become a story teller now and retell the stories to everyone. in the first place, i wanted to find something soothing and relaxing to do, like reading something fun. but this book is not the thing tho. it just makes my heart ache, and i felt reluctant to finish it. i managed anyway.

what's soo beguiling about this book? well it's not the book. it's just me. reading other people's stories or lives just make me reflect my own. it reminds me again that life is just a trial. people are tried with a lot of difficulties, one after another, and some who strongly hold onto their faith persevere those things without a sigh. altho i cannot directly relate the story of this powerful strong woman, Salsabila, there are a lot i can learn from the story, altho it might be a story made up by this talented author.

everyone has a story of his own. their own difficulties, and hardship and happiness. one would find another has more than one in certain things and find that another has less than one in another thing. and sometimes we can't help but to question why we don't have what other people do. and to think of it, if we keep questioning that, then we'll keep questioning until the day we die coz we'll always come upon people who have more and more than us. learn to be grateful for what we have as it seems the only way to live happily....

tunggu teduh dulu should be very significant with my life. i use to think i'd be stuck in a problem forever and when i managed to solve it i never even gave another thought of it. it just disappeared from my mind. that's where patience comes into the picture. the rain does not come all the time, and there'll be a day when it is bright and sunny. the rain comes to cleanse away dirts on the road, freshens the air and make the flowers blossom the next day. i just need to be patient.

that's what i am gonna do now, tunggu teduh dulu for whatever it is that's bothering my life.

jia you!!!

Trials after trials

Alhamdulillah just finished exam..end of one trial and here comes another and the next and the next...that's what life is all about anyway. it' s indeed a place of trial. one minute you find yourself so down you think you can barely get up and the next moment you find yourself up so high, forgetting for a moment that the very moment will last in a few seconds. just before exams i've been having an emotional hazard so bad that i couldn't cope with studying to an extent that i don't care anymore.

so i decided to look for something just to ease away my unhappiness about...well a lot of things..studies and stuff.. i found Harun Yahya's website and found lots of intetesting stuff there. articles, books etc. this one long article/short book captured my interest tho, coz it's about "secrets behind trials". exactly the thing i needed at that moment, about tests, exams and stuff. when i read this thing, i realized, i already know this..well i do. but then i forget. i forget that i am here for something, i live for something...only that at times i forget. lots of things make me forget, people, things etc..

"The world is a place of testing!". as Allah has said in the Quran:

"We did not give any human being before you immortality. And if you die, will they then be immortal? Every person shall taste death. We test you with both good and evil as a trial. ANd you will be returned to Us." (Surah al-ANbiya;, 34-35)

so this bad feeling i am having, is a test after all. sometimes i feel like shouting out to the world and give em a piece of my mind. i feel so bursting inside it's threatening to come out of my mouth. that's what unbelievers would do indeeed. one would think, failing in one part of life is the end of their life, and there's nothing else to live for anymore. even if it's just an emotional hazard like i always have. but anyway, to think that my life is going to be all straight and nice, how lame of me. what do i expect anyway. and the worse thing is wishing for something that you never know whether it's good for you. wishing u have something that other ppl have, and getting frustrated over things u cannot get or achieve. and much much worse thing getting envious over what ALlah has given other people. thanks to a friend who reminded me, we have to learn to be grateful over what ALlah has given us. and asking for something which we think is good, Allah knows better whether it is really good for us. we just gotta put our trust in Him. everything has its wisdoms behind, be it good or bad in our eyes, but He knows better.

so. whatever bad feelings i have right now, is indeed a test from Him. to make myself realize my own shortcomings improve myself. why don't i see it?? why don't i just keep that in mind? what is wrong with me?? be patient, be patient, be patient. remember Allah's promise:

"Those who say: "Our Lord is Allah" and then go straight will feel no fear and will know no sorrow. (Surah al-Ahqaf,13)

Two times celebration

Semalam kawan aku selamat diijabkabulkan. Majlis yang sangat simple. tapi berjalan lancar Alhamdulillah. kalau ikutkan mungkin agak rush sebab baru decide dalam sehari. tapi bila fikir balik benda yang baik buat apa nak tangguh2. memang ade gak terfikir kenapa la dieorang rush sangat...tak sabar-sabar. tapi bukan ke lagi bagus dari tunang lama-lama dan kesana sini dengan tunang. yang peliknya orang tak cakap pulak. tapi kalau nak terus kawin cepat2 mesti macam2 orang kata. aku pon bile fikir balik memang ade mentaliti mcm tu (mentaliti orang melayu).

sekurang2nya dieorang dah sempurnakan salah satu sunnah Rasullah. kurang satu tanggungjawab, aku belum tentu lagi ni..huhu..camna pon aku sgt heppy untuk dieorg walaupun mcm ada rase xpercaya mase time akad nikah tu..betul ker kawan aku dah jadik bini org nih?? huhu..time aku nanti mcmana la..(weng2..berangan sendiri). yang pasti aku (dgn xmalunya ckp pasal kawin ni) nak seorang suami yang soleh, yang boleh bimbing aku.

dats about the wedding. then there's Eid Mubarak. insyaAllah kalau panjang umur esok boleh celebrate Hari Raya, first time in Aussie. huhu..mungkin lagi best dr raya kat rumah sbb semua kawan2 kat sini. bile lagi kan nak raya ngan kawan2. asyik ngan family jer. tapi tak tahula. i never really looked forward to celebrate the Eid, but I'll try to since Allah has given us all Muslims this special day as a symbol of happiness and success of the MUslims after one month trial in Ramadhan. aku sepatutnya sambut dgn gumbira la kan. memang la happy tu happy jugak, tapi kenala berpada. jgn rasa terlalu excited nk raya smpai tak rasa apa2 bila Ramadhan bakal meninggalkan kita. entah sempat merasai ramadhan tahun2 depan, Allahua'lam.

one thing different about this raya, unliek prevoius ones, this is the first time raya before exams. the exam fever is on, so raya fever wont be that long. maybe one day i think. but then that's how it's suppose to be, isn't it? hopefully INsyaALlah dengan keberkatan Ramdhan dan Syawal, moga study aku pon dapat berkat. lepas ni banyak kena reflect diri, apa yang aku dah dapat masa bulan Ramadhan kali ni. ade improve ker, lagi teruk ker? aku perlu ubah mindset sebelum ni. sadly to say, i used to dread Ramadhan coz I gotta fast. it wasn't a worship, but a process of starving myself, when i really think of it. so what's the use. now i realize how much important for one to treasure it...while you can.